Chill Out | personal

Posted 23 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Updates / 0 Comments

There are things that have been taking WAY too much space in my head. Worries, just…frustrating things. 
I swear as I’ve gotten older, especially with social networking, I’ve become needier? Desperate almost. I hate it. I hate how social media has changed me. I mean, you’d think by now I’d be used to being lonely, to not having the life I want? But I’m not. 
So you know what? I need to put back up those walls. Try and distance myself from social media for a bit. Concentrate on my blog, my videos, my writing, my reading. Just…do the things I enjoy.
Stop worrying, stop being so pathetic, stop sounding so needy about subscribers. It’s pissing me off about as much as, i’m sure, it’s annoying you guys. 
I sound like a whiny child. I need to take a deep breath, close my eyes, calm down, and say to myself:
Don’t worry about who is or isn’t subscribed to you. If people don’t want to talk to you, that’s their loss. The more I think about how alone I am inside and outside, the more it messes with my mind. It makes me paranoid, it makes me even more self-conscious, competitive, and ultimately makes me SO FUCKING UNHAPPY!
But you know what I’ve really come to acknowledge?
Friendship shouldn’t be this hard!
There are people I thought I was their friend, but god forbid I get a decent response out of them when I make contact.
Anyway, from now on I’m going to TRY and chill OUT. 
 I’m 30 now, and I’m done. I’m so fucking done. I’m always going to care more about people than they do me, and as far as I’m concerned, I’ve tried. If people can’t appreciate me, appreciate my loyalty, my kindness (well, unless you piss me off) then good riddance!
Ugh. I’m taking a break from twitter (as best as I can). 
It’s not good for my mental health, and I realise that sounds cliche, but it’s true. Before social media, I dealt. I just dealt. But now I see how many followers I have and why? I see how little subs I have on youtube and how much work I do, or don’t do, and it MESSES WITH MY MIND. 
My blog is basically the one place I can be honest. I don’t even talk to people about this stuff because it sounds so whiny. 
So here’s to a new me.

Review: 4.5 stars to Forever Geek (Geek Girl #6) by Holly Smale

Posted 16 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Contemporary, Funny, Middle Grade, Reviews, Updates, YA / 0 Comments

My name is Harriet Manners and I’ll be a geek forever…

Harriet Manners knows almost every fact there is.

Modelling isn’t a sure-fire route to popularity. Neither is making endless lists. The people you love don’t expect you to transform into someone else. Statistically, you are more likely to not meet your Australian ex-boyfriend in Australia than bump into him there.

So on the trip of a lifetime Down Under Harriet’s to-do lists are gone and it’s Nat’s time to shine! Yet with nearly-not-quite-boyfriend Jasper back home, Harriet’s completely unprepared to see supermodel ex Nick. Is the fashion world about to turn ugly for GEEK GIRL?

It’s time for Harriet to face the future. Time to work out where her heart lies. To learn how to let go…

Forever Geek was a somewhat perfect ending to the series. However the ending killed me.
In this episode of Harriet Manners Goes Wild (lol!) Harriet is off to good ole Australia with her best friend Natalie and her grandmother Bunty. All on the pretence that she will be getting some new cool modelling jobs Wilbur has set up for her. Unfortunately things go slightly off kilter and Harriet starts taking matters into her own hands.
Never a good thing.
Sometimes, Harriet, you just need to listen when they say be patient! Oh my God. She ditches all her plans and that’s not a thing you want with this girl. Nuh-uh.
I kind of missed Team JRNTH but they still popped up in odd ways like phone calls and texts. The whole mystery about whether Harriet might bump into her ex boyfriend Nick was one that I truly kinda hoped wouldn’t happen as I rather like Jasper.
Harriet’s escapades were hilarious as usual, and some were rather cringe-worthy like ‘oh my God what are you doing?’ You know? It was a bit extreme even for her at times.
There were parts near the end that had me in literal tears and I’ll never forgive it for that. Why couldn’t we go the whole book without tears? Fml. Anyway, I’m really sad this series is over but am super excited about what Holly has next to publish. I know it’ll be great!
There were so many highs and lows throughout this series and I got to join Harriet on so many adventures. I don’t regret it for a second, however the second hand embarrassment could have been dialled down a bit. Haha.
I’ll miss all the characters, and the fun times. I’ll miss the modelling shoots and the crazy fashion. I’ll even miss Yuki Oto. I spelt that right, right?
I give this a 4.5 stars purely because of a certain thing that happens that I won’t mention. While it isn’t a bad thing, or a good thing, it just… Could have done without.
Good bye Harriet.



Did I do it? | My Writing Journey

Posted 15 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Kat's Writing, Updates / 3 Comments



Hi again! Remember me?
Yeah you do, you little monkeys! 
Guess what? 
Guessed yet? 
I finished my first draft of my ‘peach street’ magic story. Yeah okay don’t get too excited. I might have gotten to the end, but that doesn’t mean it’s finished. Obviously. I wrote ‘the end’ but it didn’t really feel like the right ending. I won’t know what my true ending will be until I’ve edited because, 
a) I need to change the POV to first person
b) I have A LOT of holes to fill
c) I gotta extend a lot of chapters because the pacing is ridonkulous!
Last week I told you I got to 40k, well about 3k after that I decided to just wrap it up. I’m NOW, thanks to a lot of padding out chapters 1 & 2, at just over 46k and I’m hoping to get to 50k somewhere in the middle. It’s one of those stories where I am seriously gonna get shit for lack of world building, but to me this is less ‘fantasy’ and maybe more magic realism? I don’t know exactly what that looks like, but my world isn’t exactly fake. It’s based on real places in the UK BUT kind of…I dunno…made up? I dunno. The street ‘peach street’ is, as a lot of my stories are, based on the street my nan’s house was (it’s sold now so I feel weird). But yeah. 
I’m now editing chapter 3, and I’ve realised a problem. Because I extended chapter 2, you know, a lot – It’s basically a new chapter on its own. – I now have chapter 3…and it makes no sense time-line wise and so I now either have to change ALL OF IT  or add a new chapter to go between. Which seems more likely. Though what happens in chapter 3 I still want to happen, I kinda thought it’d be cooler to have it happen somewhere else? Like the school, rather than Dominic (the male guy that I love so much) house. Because who doesn’t love a good ole showdown in public where regular folks might come across it? Yeah. HAHA
In any case, I’ve gotta sort something out soon. I know I said I was going to do Camp Nano, and I am, but I think instead of 20k as my goal, I’m gonna just put 10k because it’s literally just me editing and trying to get my word goal up to at least 60k. I think. Basically whatever I get to when I get to the last chapter. Jeez. How can people say ‘editing is the best part’? It’s so not. For me, at least. It’s tedious. I think it doesn’t help that I’ve not done it exactly…logically. I don’t over write (I wish I could) and the pacing was so fast, everything happened like one after the other with no…y’know…getting to know the characters (and I still don’t know how to do that. I just don’t understand how to do that sort of thing. I need help) that I had so many plot holes and whatnot. I feel like I’ve done it all backwards. Sigh.
Maybe once I figure out what my story IS, overall, I’ll feel better? I sure hope so. I mean, in my head I know roughly what happens, but like with most things, I can never find the right words. 
God. Writing a book is HARD!
Until next time, folks. 

Opinions, And Why We’re Allowed Them

Posted 13 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Updates / 0 Comments

The title of this post might seem misleading, but I utterly suck at coming up with decent titles. Sorry.
I was going to make a video about what I’m about to talk to you about, but then I remembered how whiny my voice sounds sometimes and well…that put me off. Also, my blog is small in comparison to youtube and not that many people see it. I mean, I have over 700 followers on twitter but do I ever get 700 views? No. Not that I get hundreds on youtube, but you see my point. I don’t reach far. A bit like my life, really. I’m short, you see.
Annnd I digress.
This post may offend some, and you may not agree with it, but that’s the BEAUTY of opinions, is it not? As humans we are ENTITLED to think the way we think. Otherwise we’d be robots and… I’d say we wouldn’t want that but honestly, I think I’d rather like being immortal.
Anyway, here goes.
This is what’s been bugging me a LOT lately, and it starts, like most stories do, with Twitter. Snuggle up, kids. It’s about to get rocky. 
So today, and well, in other times in the past, I’ve come across threads and random posts people have made declaring, in a statement, that WE SHOULD BE LIKE THIS. For lack of a better example, today someone said, rather obnoxiously might I add, that anyone that reviews books and doesn’t find anything racist in it when some other few have found racist stuff in it, shouldn’t be reviewing those books and should let other more “qualified” reviewer do their job.
I’m sorry…What? What did you say? 
I mean….seriously? SERIOUSLY? DID that person just insinuate that anyone who DOESN’T AGREE WITH A SELECT FEW shouldn’t be REVIEWING BOOKS AT ALL?
I understand your NEED, your… WANT to be self-centred, but this is a bit much, don’t you think? 
As with some other issues regarding books, if somebody LOVES A BOOK, but a few people think they find “problematic issues” in it, that does NOT, i repeat, NOT, make the person who LOVES the book, WRONG! Whether they find issues in it or not.
And for that matter, just because a select few finds “issues” in a book, does NOT, i repeat, NOT, mean there are ACTUALLY ISSUES WITH SAID BOOK! It just…and I hate to bang on about this like an insane person, but it just means you..yes you…have what is called AN OPINION. Yeah. Listen up, this is what it means for those of you who feel required to ignore it:
  1. 1.
    a view or judgement formed about something, not necessarily based on fact or knowledge.
    “that, in my opinion, is right”
    synonyms: belief, judgement, thought(s), school of thought, thinking, way of thinking, mind, point of view, view, viewpoint, outlook, angle, slant, side, attitude, stance, perspective, position, standpoint; More
  2. 2.
    a statement of advice by an expert on a professional matter.
    “if in doubt, get a second opinion”

(yes I did just copy and paste. So?)

So as you can see above, an opinion is a belief. And UNLESS YOU’RE A FUCKING EXPERT ON SAID TOPIC, WHICH I DO NOT BELIEVE YOU ARE SINCE YOU’RE ACTING LIKE A PETULANT CHILD WHEN SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOU, your opinion doesn’t make you RIGHT. It makes you…well…a person with an opinion.

Did I ruffle some feathers? Oh I’m sorry. 

Now, let me clarify, in no part of this blog post am I saying I am right on the issue, and that what I say goes, and that YOU SHOULD ALL PERISH IN A FIRE if you don’t agree with me – ahem. But I do think some of you, yes the ones (most likely) who will never read this post because I’m not worthy enough, should think about the manner in which you come across on social sites, essentially DICTATING how others should feel, think, behave, because of what you think. 
I’m utterly SICK of the crap people spout and I’ll admit, I do sometimes say things that I later regret (and often I delete said tweets because I’m a paranoid monkey who just wants to be loved) but I do try, EMPHASIS ON “TRY”, not to say stuff that sounds a) arrogant, b) insulting to others intelligence, or/and c) just plain stupid. I’m not perfect, however, so some might slip through the cracks.
I go by the basis that when NO ONE says anything to or against a tweet I make, that no one has seen it or cares and that I haven’t said anything harmful. lol. Harmful. Social Networking on a whole is, quite frankly, HARMFUL, to our state of minds and blood pressure. But who am I to quibble?
I’m sorry (not sorry) if this post comes across as brash, aggressive or just plain bitchy, but I needed to get my feelings out and whether anyone reads this or not, I’ll have done so in a way that doesn’t make me ashamed. I realise that the majority who are nice online should outshine the ones who are dickheads, but that’s not always the way it is, and it sucks. It’s those people that have thousands of followers and therefore think they obviously can do or say no wrong that need a reality check (and god dammit i hate reality but there you go).
And it’s those people that DISAGREE with those other statements that need and rightly should stand up for themselves, and not let those other bastards win. Because by not saying anything, we’re letting them think they’re right. God knows I’m the last person to stand up and be like “this is what I think…” because as someone who generally tries to please people…I’d prefer not to be on the wrong end of a rifle (figuratively speaking, of course. Guns aren’t easy accessible here in the U.K. Thank fuck!) AND I don’t like upsetting people in general, though I’m fully aware I’m not likeable. I don’t know what it is. Probably a mixture of things, but ultimately there it is.
Anyway, I think, for now, that’s enough of me ranting and raving. I should take a time-out moment and calm down, and I try to do that for the most part, but just when you think you’ve cleared your timeline of shit, more shit comes to ruin the mood. 
Then you have the people who, for a lot of the time are fairly decent, but then THEY go and say something, in my opinion, stupid, and the cycle starts all over again. Sigh.
Whether I’ve annoyed, upset, or even made you pleased because you agree with me during this post, I hope I’ve made my point, or lack-there-of, pretty clear, and that it’s understandable. I try not to make posts like this very often because I know it’s redundant to keep on about stuff. Like herpes, stuff doesn’t go away just because you will it to.
lol bad analogy. 
See ya all soon for a new post (hopefully cheerier). 

WHUT R WERDS? | My Writing Journey PART 7?

Posted 8 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Kat's Writing, Updates / 4 Comments

I don’t even know what part it is anymore

So hi! Long time no chit chat, right? Did you miss meh? I did write a post weeks ago, but unfortunately it was a rather depressing mess. So here I am!
You can probably guess that now I have realised the errors of my ways and become a whole new person? 
The truth is, I got to the end of Lost and now I’m like what do I do now? I’M LOST! AHAHAHA GET IT?
I haven’t given up on my contemporary, by the way, but I have put it aside. It was, in a word or two, boring me. So what am I writing? Glad you asked.
That was a joke. Laugh, dammit!
I’m finishing my magic story I did. I got to 40k recently (again) on both stories, funnily enough, but I missed Dominic and Jane. I’m ALSO (apparently a glutton for punishment) changing it from 3rd person to 1st person. BECAUSE I LIKE TO HURT MYSELF. and because it works better this way.
Almost at the end of the story, though, so that’s something. I think once I finish, then go over and fill out bits, then it’ll HOPEFULLY be about 50k. Which is what my end goal is. 
So basically I shall update you next time I get to 45k cos y’know woah woah I’m excited. OHcrap I turned on  Grammerly and now it won’t stop underlining every goddamn word I Write. also my capslock button is a bit broken. Sigh. 


Love you all. bye xx

Review: 5 stars to Unconventional by Maggie Harcourt

Posted 5 March, 2017 by katheryn13 in Contemporary, Funny, Reviews, Romance, Updates, YA / 0 Comments

Lexi Angelo has grown up helping her dad with his events business. She likes to stay behind the scenes, planning and organizing…until author Aidan Green – messy haired and annoyingly arrogant – arrives unannounced at the first event of the year. Then Lexi’s life is thrown into disarray.

In a flurry of late-night conversations, mixed messages and butterflies, Lexi discovers that some things can’t be planned. Things like falling in love…

Unconventional is a story that completely blew me away. It’s relatable but not in a sad way, but a way in which it brings back memories of good times. Reminding me why I love conventions, and also just reminds me of the funny and somewhat chaotic things that can, and will, happen at them.
Lexi Angelo is just downright ordinary, but in the best way possible. There are no airs and graces, and right from the start we can get an idea of who she is. Her voice is bright, down to earth and not at all pretentious. There wasn’t a moment where I was irritated by her.
Aidan is my new book boyfriend, I’m sure. Though the slow burning romance was more fade to black than I expected, it wasn’t annoyingly so, and it worked perfectly. He’s open, friendly, but also has flaws and isn’t just…a cardboard cut out of himself, you know? He’s an author with a pseudonym and so it’s also tricky for us, the readers (at least I found it to be so) to know which side of Aidan  we’re getting to know, which side is talking at any time, right along side Lexi. I love how nervous and vulnerable he gets when having to do public appearances, it makes me wonder how I’d be if I ever got published.
The convention family made me feel like I was actually there and experiencing it all with them. My personal favourite was Sam – Samira- but really everyone was entertaining in their own ways. Lexi’s dad was refreshing to read, because a lot of YA doesn’t involve the parents as much as in this one. I can in some ways relate to Lexi wanting to stay in her own little world, but I wish it was as easy to expand ones horizons as she makes it out to be, not to mention the whole being a lover-of-books thing. I could fully understand the feeling behind feeling so close to a book and not wanting to share it with others. It’s a little how I feel with this book.
The way Lexi and Aidan grew closer together seriously gave me butterflies like never before and I squee’d so much I’m pretty sure I sounded like a kettle boiling. It was a subtle romance, and nothing overwhelming. In fact, it had more of an effect on me than if it had been all kissing and bed-time antics. Personally I prefer the tension, the over-all build up than just…let’s get it on. 😛
Sometimes I’d think I’d know what would happen next only to be shown I was wrong, and then all the twists and turns that went on throughout, had me feeling like a wrung out cloth at points, but I didn’t mind because it was keeping me on my toes and excited for each page yet to read.
This was one of the best books I’ve ever read, and I know I will go back to it again and again in the future, because it’s one that makes me feel at home. The only criticism I had, to be honest, was a bit near the beginning when a few authors were mentioned. Not made up ones, but ones that aren’t necessarily high profile like J. K. Rowling or Stephen King. I partly found it a bit dating and tacky but it didn’t linger for long so I soon got over it, and once I did, I forgot all about it (though obviously not in terms of adding it to this review…)
I had no expectations when I first started Unconventional, but by the first page I was hooked and even if you’ve never been to a convention in your life, I have no doubt you’ll be hooked too. It’s hilarious, charming, sweet and very very relatable as I said, and certainly unconventional in all its glory.  
A full five stars from me. Not to mention, this book got me out of a reading slump! 🙂



what’s going on?

Posted 28 February, 2017 by katheryn13 in Updates / 4 Comments

I know I’ve been lax in blogging lately, and I put out an apology last week or whenever it was, but sadly things aren’t moving any faster than they were. 
I haven’t finished a book yet so I can’t do a review. I haven’t written much more of my WIP (well, I wrote 1k but that’s not enough to write a post on) and I haven’t really done much to warrant any news. 
Though next Saturday I am going to a VIP Geek Girl party thing for the new Geek Girl book being released, and the author Holly Smale will be there! I’m part excited, part terrified that there’ll be just a load of children. Sigh.
I’ve been having some pretty low moments lately, and it’s making me less enthused to write, to blog, to do anything lately. I’d talk about it on here, but in the past it’s about as bad as talking to my bath, so it’s just easier to not. Problems + paranoia + no self esteem = not exactly the best combination. 
So yeah, I really hope to have more things to blog about, but until then, please don’t forget about me, and share any posts you like, because you know I like that. I’ll keep you updated if anything changes. xx Kat xx

Just a quick note

Posted 16 February, 2017 by katheryn13 in Updates / 0 Comments

Hey, so I know I’ve been real quiet on this blog, but it’s not because I’ve forgotten. 
I haven’t written a review in AGES, and that’s partly because I’ve actually not finished a new book in ages. Like…a month. It’s sad but true. Anyway, I hope to have something up soon.
Don’t forget ME please? I’ll see you soon. My writing journey blog will be up next week (I’ve not had a good mood this week writing wise, so I want to write a post that isn’t full of ranting. Even if it is theraputic. )


drama days | My Writing Journey PART 5

Posted 9 February, 2017 by katheryn13 in Blog Talks, Kat's Writing, Updates / 0 Comments


I hate me right now.
What a killer first line, eh? Have I got you hooked? Shame it’s not for a story. It’s just how I’m feeling.
I had a video planned for this weeks blog/vlog/catalogue. Ha. I rhyme. Anyway, the video turned out to be a shitty idea. I mean, I filmed it, edited, but just…meh. I’m going through a stage of thinking everything is crap and I should give up.
I mean, there’s new bookish drama going on twitter THAT I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH (on the author’s side) and it’s making me so MAD because everyone jumps to the foregone conclusion that THEY ARE RIGHT AND EVERYONE WHO THINKS DIFFERENTLY IS WRONG AND SHOULD DIE IN A FIRE.
I don’t think that. I think if people want to think opposite to me, good for them, I’ll see them in court.
As I was sort of coming around to, this new drama has got me thinking about whether I should even bother writing? I love writing, I want to publish one day, but the way people are behaving, anything I write won’t be considered “accurate” or “represented 100% correctly” like can you fuck off and grow an imagination?
Sorry, I’m getting antsy again. *brushes ants off shoulder* shoo!
So as for my story, my humungous waste of time, I’m at 33? thousand words now. I think. I don’t know. I haven’t written in a couple of days due to a complete lack of mood and feeling like shit, which you can hear all about in my new video going up today. Sigh. WHY
On a totally non-book related side note: why do people think that if you’re older than 20 you’re not allowed to have moody moments and be sad or have depressive thoughts? Like what because I’m not a “hormonal teen” that I’m not allowed to bE DOWN? I should be ‘past’ that? Excuse you, but SOME OF US didn’t even HAVE those hormones as a teen. (I legit didn’t really bc of health issues) so if I’m finally catching up now, that’s not my fault. It’s biology. And fuck biology, that’s what I say. Tomorrow I’m becoming a panda. goodbye world
*tomorrow comes* Wait…what
I’m still human?
I realised for my story that I’m writing WAY too many dramatic scenes – and i love drama, I really do, but man this shit is depressing!- so I need to add some funny moments. It’s not enough to just have the MC’s narrative be ‘amusing’, if I want this to a ‘rom-com’ then it needs COMEDIC MOMENTS, YA HEAR?
I’m so glad I have my blog to hear my woes, because god knows no where else wants to hear them. I made a video about shit that happened this week. I don’t know why I thought that was a good idea.
I apologise in advance.
Um…book news? Um…yeah I HOPE to get to 40k by next week? Who the fuck knows anymore?
Peace out