(OR 432 IF I’M BEING 100% ACCURATE because this story has been going on for a while.)
It’s decided. In order to perhaps get a better idea on what the actual hell I’m writing, I wanna do monthly (or weekly…It’s not decided yet. haha okay I’m not ALL there) blog posts where I’ll talk about the struggles, the characters, maybe how far I’ve come along? I don’t know. But I need to vent and figure things out. Better late than never, eh?
Lately I’ve been coming up with epiphanies (hence the title of this post) about my story. I won’t go into too much detail lest I spoil it all for you, and for me, because y’know, I don’t have a clue where I’m going on this crazy train ride, after all.
Only last week I’d decided to change something big about my WIP because I was seriously struggling to find the ending. I knew something wasn’t right, as I was also very bored. So I decided to change 2 POVs to 1 POV. That in itself was a big enough overhaul that my word count took a major beating. I had originally made it to 40k, but now I might never get back there. Despite that, I feel much happier it being only one sided. I found that both POVs, even when one was a girl, the other a boy, were becoming very similar in sound. If they were real people, you could close your eyes and think they were twins. Which they’re not. I couldn’t have that. It was confusing me.
Then last night (very late) when I was getting ready for bed, my brain suddenly went POP BANG SPLATTER (kidding on that last one). Funnily enough it was while I was in the bathroom. You know, the birth place of all ideas. 😛 It occurred to me that I should take out the prologue, take out the fact that Jane, my MC, knows Dominic, the other guy before they actually speak face to face.
Why do so many boy/girl YA books work so well? There’s usually some mystery to them, right? So if the readers already know who the boy is, and what he is, that takes all the mystery and I suppose, joy, of finding out more, doesn’t it? I don’t even know why I had the damned prologue in the first place. I think it was more for my benefit, to be honest. It didn’t knock a huge amount off the word count, thankfully, and hopefully dragging out the ‘getting to know you’ process will *fingers crossed* create more plot bricks…if that makes sense? I mean, I already know who Dominic IS by this stage, as I’ve been writing him a while. It’s not like I’ve got to figure him out as I go along on my, what is it now? 3rd draft? I HAVEN’T EVEN FINISHED THE 1ST DRAFT YET! So I guess I’ll call it 1st draft, volume 3. LOL
My head is spinninnnggggg.
Anyway, now I have that sorted, I feel I should be able to continue undisturbed now. Ha, now I’ve said that I’m sure to have another idea later. Sigh.
When I was at my nieces yesterday afternoon, I mentioned sending some books off to friends, and my brother was all “what books are they? ones you’ve written?” -.- Yes, he’s always making comments about my writing, and how slow I am, and ‘when am I gonna make them money?”
I know he’s only teasing, but it makes me so…anxious. It’s the worst kind of pressure, because it’s not like he’s my editor or my agent and if I don’t finish a draft I won’t get paid. Or something. He’s just my idiot brother who doesn’t understand the creative process of NOT HAVING A FUCKING CLUE WHAT I AM DOING but hey I’m doing it anyway? You get me? He doesn’t read. He has ZERO creative bones in his body. It seems I got those. Even my other brother doesn’t read (and tbh, it’s obvious. he’s ignorant as fuck about a LOT of things). So of course they all think it’s piss easy to string along sentences to create paragraphs to create pages. It’s not. I wish it was. I mean, sure, if you want absolute shit presented to you, then hey, here you go. Don’t choke on it.
I don’t know how to get through to them (and my mum, because she’s also quite “you need to finish before i die, etc etc etc” which I’m quite offended by bc she’s never dying.) that writing a book is not as simple as press control-alt-CREATE, and even if I finished one, there is NO guarantee I’d even get published, and even THEN who’s to say I’d get enough to pay for a loaf of bread?
I wouldn’t even bet I’d get enough money to pay off a credit card bill if I won the lottery. So YEAH, I can do without the added stress thank you family.
So…before I continue to rant and rant the day away, I’ll leave you here.
I actually think I should do weekly blogs, because then maybe I’ll do more writing. lol
Have a good day and you know…try not to freak out too often. 🙂
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