So here we are again. Didn’t I tell you I’d probably need to do these weekly? Since my last update, I’ll be honest. My words have not been flowing freely. Whenever I try to add more to the word count, I find I need to delete a few lines. So really, I’m not getting anywhere. It’s sooooo frustrating. I think this story is becoming…ugh, I can’t believe I’m saying this…stilted. It feels dry. Something isn’t working (still!) and I don’t know how to fix it. I want to cry.
The problem is simple: I have a very short attention span. Perhaps not as short as my (almost) 4 year old niece, but quite clearly getting there. I swear I wasn’t always like this. I get so bored easily with what I’m writing. Like last night, I had this AMAZING!!! Idea, and so I wrote it down carefully, and had character names and also, haha, this is funny; I put down the ‘cliches’ so my future self when I read it back can KNOW NOT TO WRITE THE STORY INVOLVING THESE THINGS!!! But hey, maybe my future self will be even worse and think “ah to hell with it”. Perhaps cliche’s will be cool? Weirder things have happened.
So I wrote down the names, the ‘do not do these cliches’ and then sort of wrote the plot…and that’s a loose ‘sort of’ because y’know…terrible. Since I’ve read SO many books, and there are certain things (I believe you hipsters call them ‘tropes’) that I like about these books, it’s bloody bloody hard (see, I’m laying off the swears this time. Aren’t you proud?) to AVOID these favourite things when writing your own story. I mean, I’m sure it’s easier once you’ve written a few books. But the problem IS that I also want to write what I enjoy. You feel me? Anyway, it’s mind blogging. I mean, boggling. Damn it, brain. CONCENTRATE!
The issue with my WIP is, to put it mildly, fucked. Oh, there I go.
Also, side note: I’m sick of changing the font to Heading 6 every time I start a new paragraph. >_> WordPress you fail sometimes!
*tightens fists* Okay, I’m calm. I’ve changed bits in my WIP where Jane now is the only POV, she’s met Dominic but she DOESN’T know who/what he is, and I’ve tried to add bits here and there to pad it out. It’s slow going, and I might be about 50 years old by the time it gets finished, but hey…
Maybe I’ll start something new on the side? Hell, I have about 20 different stories “on the side” and none of them are going far. You’ll have to excuse me.
Occasionally I question my reason for being a writer. I wonder if maybe I should try something else, and then I freak out because oh god, I don’t know what else I like! Before I decided to do writing ‘professionally’ I didn’t know what i wanted to do. I tried acting (spent a fortune on lessons) and that went south. I tried singing (a fortune on lessons) and well, I knew that wasn’t going to go far because I don’t exactly have the skills to make it. I still enjoy singing, though. But then I realised I enjoyed writing, and I thought fuck it, I’ll do this for a career. Shame I haven’t finished anything. Send help.
I wish blogging could be a paid career. Wait…that’s journalism, isn’t it? Yeah, I can’t do that. I need a degree. I’m way past the time for that. Anyway, I’m rambling now. Maybe if I write a new story, or try to, I can switch between that and the other one, and perhaps within the next decade I can finish. Oh fingers crossed. Like, toes and legs crossed too. You just go ahead and cross every limb you can, yeah? That’s a good..person.
I’m gonna go now, and finish watching Star Trek (the 09 movie, because mmm Chris Pine). I’ll talk to you next week! (I know I’m writing this the day before it’s published. I’m weird that way. 😀 )
Ugh, what a week. Nano is not going strong for me, though, I’ll start you off with something good:
I reached my original 30k goal!
So that means I’ve now changed my goal to 40k. I’m so pleased because at one point I wondered if I’d make it. I’m not near the end of the story – even though I have notes on roughly what I want to happen, I still have no idea how I’m going to get there. Sigh.
Once again I’m writing this post because I forgot to vlog and also forgot to make notes, so watch my impressive calculator skills go to work with my daily word counts:
Tuesday 15th: I finished my vlog on this day, and didn’t really know I’d be writing, but apparently aI got 557 words done. So yay!
Wednesday 16th: 1179 words. Wow. What a win!
Thursday 17th: 800 words. I don’t remember writing this much…
Friday 18th: 442 words. Meh.
Saturday 19th: As far as I know, I didn’t write anything this day.
Sunday 20th: 1765. Yeah, Sunday was my best day this week. I wrote more than I thought I would, and I passed my 30k goal. WOOT!
Monday 21st: – No words written. I was out most of the day.
Tuesday 22nd: – Went to the cinema, and currently writing this post…so yeah, no words done. Sigh.
So yeah, as you can see….not the greatest week, writing-wise. But I hope to catch up at least by 5k-10k. I don’t hope to ‘win’ Nanowrimo, but y’know, I made it this far.
One week to go – well, more like 9 days – and I am currently something like 20k behind? I don’t know. It’s a lot, basically.
I honestly don’t know why I chose to do this. I mean…50k in a month? Am I mad? YES. Yes, I am. So as I forgot to actually VLOG this week, I realise I’d have to do a written post about my progress so far. WHUUUUUT WHYYYY
Okay, enough dramatics.
I’ve been pretty behind on my word count, but not as much as in previous years. I’m holding up well. Here’s a break down:
Tuesday 1st November: I kinda cheated this day because I forgot to reset the word count on scrivener. *gasps* Yeah, so I put into nano site I did 1200 words, which wasn’t THAT far off, to be honest.
Wednesday 2nd November: Ugh, I hate maths. Nano site doesn’t tell me (past the actual day) how many words I did specifically, and I forgot to write notes. I used a calculator (woo go me!) and deduced I wrote 1164 words this day. *party time*
Thursday 3rd November: Apparently I wrote 1159 words? Um…okay, if you insist Mr Calculator.
Friday 4th November: Seriously, I’m thinking I’m doing the maths wrong. *growls* Apparently I only wrote 1058 words this day. WHAT?
Saturday 5th November (*Guy Fawkes day* WOOOOOT! fireworks everywhere!!!): *calculates* ah yes, that’s better. I wrote 2240 words. I am the master of words this day! Watch me type….ROAR!
Sunday 6th November: sigh. 1269. I SWEAR I wrote more. I swear it. This adding and subtracting business is screwing with me. GRRRR!
Monday 7th November (THAT’S TODAY!!!): Haha, well that’s easy. 0words. I mean, I haven’t written any yet. I’ll guess..hmmm…I’ve written 5000 words today. 😛 What? You don’t believe I can do it? Pfft!
Just you wait.
*starts rapping Hamilton lyrics*
See ya next week! xx Kat xx
p.s. if you’re doing NaNo, let me know your progress! I wanna know who I need to beat. Mwahahahaha
I was going to make a video, proclaiming how I would be taking part in the greatest writing challenges of our generation, NaNoWriMo. It would have been magical.
But, because I am still ill – though honestly, I’ve been ill for a lot longer than this before but for some reason this seems exceptionally long and therefore I am 1000% done – and I can’t exactly TALK properly without coughing like a crack addict (do crack addicts cough? I dunno. I would have put ‘smokers’ but it sounded too cliche, ya know? no? alright then) so filming, alas, is out of the question. Unless…you wanna watch me hacking my lungs up and husking out words with maximum effort?
Didn’t think so.
So here is me, saying to you, that yes, I will be doing nanowrimo.
Don’t act all surprised. You didn’t really think I’d not TRY this year, did you? I’ve “TRIED” every year since 2009…or 10. I can’t quite remember.
The details are hazy.
But in any case, it’s going to be one mish mash of ‘oh this is fun’ to ‘fuck it, I give up on this shit’.
Same old, same old
that’s pretty much how I feel about a lot of my half hearted stories.
But this year, ohhhhhh no, I’m working it.
Not exactly an accurate example of how I work, but you get the idea.
So I know that the idea is to start a NEW story, new idea, but whenever I do that, I end up bored half way or stuck somewhere in the 20k mark, wishing for a life boat to save me from these wretched waters.
This time, I’m already 10k into a story, that I’m ACTUALLY enjoying somewhat, and so for nano I’m going to use this time to FINISH. IT. ALL. Like no lie, really, I’m gonna finish it. I know, crazy right?
It’s a whole new experience. lol
Since I don’t expect to WIN anyway, I might as well work toward a goal I can master. Which is why this story is (so far) going to be a novella. Until I decide that actually no, wait, it could be a full ass novel. I have utterly given up on working towards a 60k plus novel, getting to the half way point or whatever and losing the plot entirely. If I even had a plot to begin with.
If you’re interested in reading what I have so far…here’s a link to my WattPad account: just clickety click here
As far as what the story is about is concerned….well all I’ve gathered so far is it’s about magic, and evil step sisters, and teens who just don’t know themselves that well. I’ll try and throw in some romance, but that’s not exactly my strong suit. Neither is action, so don’t, yknow, hold out hope.
If you’re planning on doing nano, let me know. If you fancy adding me to your buddies list on the nanowrimo site, my username is Woah_It’sKat
So until my next update which may or may not happen in video or written form – depends on my health – I’ll see ya later!
Is it…do my eyes deceive me? Is it the end of week 2 ALREADY? Woah. I mean, where has the time gone? Hopefully well spent, right? RIGHT?
See for yourself.
Unfortunately, I’ve been a bad bunny this week and though, yes, I have been writing, I have also forgotten to keep track. So…
If you didn’t already see my last update (which was a video), see it here:
So last week, I made it, in total to 45,943. I’d started at just over 42k…so maybe 42,250 odd? Having written only a few thousand in a week, I was pretty disappointed but also happy, because a few thousand is better than no thousand, amirite??
Now for week 2, I am now up to 48,209. So again, not a great amount, not much further than before, but I’m nearly at 50k and that’s something! I’m currently still stuck in the middle section of the story, where I need to somehow push the plot so I can somehow wind everything up. Whatever that might be. I’m still pretty sure this story makes no sense, but hey. I want to write as much as I can, so that come edit time, I’ll be able to take stuff out and not feel like I’ve just lost everything. LOL. I still admire, and am part scared, of writers that can write 100k+ in a matter of weeks/couple of months. It makes me think I’m doing something wrong. Which, logically, I know I’m not, but still…it’s daunting. A part of me wants to copy them, and I really shouldn’t, because that’s not me, nor my speed.
I’m hoping week 3 will be better, as this week I missed 2 days of writing, and now on the last day of week 2, I’ve yet to write anything still. Sigh. But in any case, I’ll update you all again next week. It’ll probably be a video. I’m trying to swap every other week so I have something to put on both platforms, ya know?
If anyone is taking part in the #HotAndSticky writing challenge, please do let me know in the comments below and tell me how far along/how well you’re doing!