I started a new idea. *cringes* Don’t hate me. I can’t help myself! It’s a problem. But in any case, I actually somewhat outlined this new idea so I have Act 1 and Act 2 all laid out ready to write up – I’ve written chapter 1 already and it’s going good. I have…hmmm….2000 words? Yeah. About that.
I want to talk about the story but I also don’t want to spoil OR jinx it. Haha.
Just know that I kind of describe it as Supernatural meets Buffy. LOL okay.
Remember my last blog about me writing fantasy? LOLOLOLOLOL.
So I’m not now. I mean, the idea has been put aside. Maybe one day I’ll write a fantasy, but right now I’m sticking to something I can handle. And an idea that is a bit more shaped out, if that makes sense.
Typically I decided on a new idea for camp nano on the first day. Great timing! It’s a YA version of the Adult contemporary I was writing, about a book club. Though hopefully it’s less depressing.
So far I’m on chapter 3, and I’m enjoying it, though it’s really hard for me to get into the headspace/voice of a teen because I wasn’t a typical teen. In fact, I think I’ve probably said this before, but I’m more of a teen NOW at 30, than I was in my actual teens? If that’s a thing, make me mayor!
So yeah, it’s hard.
I don’t know the real lingo, or what even kinds of thoughts/emotions go through teens heads, because let’s just say when I was a teen all I cared about was tv, cinema and just getting by. Boys weren’t even a thing (still aren’t…), make up wasn’t even on my mind, and school was a thing that I wanted out of the way ASAP. I understand about bullying and such, since that happened to me, but beyond that… yeah. So instead of going off PERSONAL experiences this time, I’m just making shit up and well, THAT I can do. 😀
I was at 3300 words, but after I cut out a bit because it didn’t fit just yet (I didn’t delete, I just put it to one side) I’m now at 3498 words because I wrote a load to replace it. Weird. I thought it’d be less. I’m trying to kill off the inner-editor I have telling me to write properly. I’m TRYING to write write write and not worry about if it’s shit. Seriously, do you have ANY IDEA HOW DIFFICULT THAT IS? Sigh.
If I manage to do updates more often, perhaps it’ll make me write more? A GIRL CAN DREAM! At the same time I’m also editing my magic story, so that’s still going strong. I did lose quite a lot of words, however, in one of the edits. *CRIES*. But I’m still at 50k. *WINNING!* haha.
See you all next week with another update. WISH ME LUCK! WOOOOOT!
If you’re taking part in Camp Nano this month, let me know. 🙂
p.s. annoying that the best gifs are of male actors >_< lol
Yeah, so my last post was a little…intense. I know. I’m sorry.
So I want to write fantasy. HOW? How does one even DO that? I mean, so many writer’s manage it, but how do I? That is what I’m asking!
I have an idea, a slight one, and not at all fully formed, but it’s there, poking its head around the corner like an over-excited child at Christmas. I’ve even drawn a somewhat ugly looking map…only because I kind of had to. And let me tell you…one of the islands looks SO wrong. *giggles*
Yesterday I struggled to think up a new idea that didn’t sound like parodies of other books I’ve read, but suddenly in the middle of the night, something sprang to life, the first lines appeared in my head. I refused to get up and write them down ,so alas I forgot them, BUT the kind of…feel? of the story didn’t leave me. So here I am, telling you about what I’m thinking of doing. I’m obviously not going to tell you the PLOT or whatever, because well…I haven’t got one. YET. I like that word, you know. ‘Yet’ is such hopeful sound.
Ironically that’s what I’ve called one of the islands. ‘Hope’. LOL (imagine calling an island LOL though…wouldn’t that be LAUGH OUT LOUD worthy?) Anyway. So far I have a main character – Marissa Emblem. She’s 17 and she’s feisty. But disorientated because she’s found herself on the deck of a ship with a crowd of men around her, all waiting to see what’ll happen next. I’m interested to see how she got there. I mean, seriously…my brain is like “HOW???”
Then we have a friend – and he’s not really a love interest (yet?) because in my mind he’s a few years younger, though very very polite, and helpful, but not at all her type. Haha.
I was originally going to have it in real places, like Scotland or something, but then I realised I can’t be bothered to stare at google maps until my eyes bleed, so I figured why not make up a world? Or something close to? How hard can it be?
Coming up with names for places is like…well difficult. Even with place names generator websites, which by the way come up with names ALREADY EXISTING! I just think “what sounds weird?”
Anyway, I feel like this could be the start of a brand new series of blog posts. No, not really. I’m getting ahead of myself as usual. I just wanted to update you all. I mean, this shit takes TIME, ya know? I might be over it in a week, or I might be 10k in and loving it. Time will tell. I only have 3 pages so far.
I finished my first draft of my ‘peach street’ magic story. Yeah okay don’t get too excited. I might have gotten to the end, but that doesn’t mean it’s finished. Obviously. I wrote ‘the end’ but it didn’t really feel like the right ending. I won’t know what my true ending will be until I’ve edited because,
a) I need to change the POV to first person
b) I have A LOT of holes to fill
c) I gotta extend a lot of chapters because the pacing is ridonkulous!
Last week I told you I got to 40k, well about 3k after that I decided to just wrap it up. I’m NOW, thanks to a lot of padding out chapters 1 & 2, at just over 46k and I’m hoping to get to 50k somewhere in the middle. It’s one of those stories where I am seriously gonna get shit for lack of world building, but to me this is less ‘fantasy’ and maybe more magic realism? I don’t know exactly what that looks like, but my world isn’t exactly fake. It’s based on real places in the UK BUT kind of…I dunno…made up? I dunno. The street ‘peach street’ is, as a lot of my stories are, based on the street my nan’s house was (it’s sold now so I feel weird). But yeah.
I’m now editing chapter 3, and I’ve realised a problem. Because I extended chapter 2, you know, a lot – It’s basically a new chapter on its own. – I now have chapter 3…and it makes no sense time-line wise and so I now either have to change ALL OF IT or add a new chapter to go between. Which seems more likely. Though what happens in chapter 3 I still want to happen, I kinda thought it’d be cooler to have it happen somewhere else? Like the school, rather than Dominic (the male guy that I love so much) house. Because who doesn’t love a good ole showdown in public where regular folks might come across it? Yeah. HAHA
In any case, I’ve gotta sort something out soon. I know I said I was going to do Camp Nano, and I am, but I think instead of 20k as my goal, I’m gonna just put 10k because it’s literally just me editing and trying to get my word goal up to at least 60k. I think. Basically whatever I get to when I get to the last chapter. Jeez. How can people say ‘editing is the best part’? It’s so not. For me, at least. It’s tedious. I think it doesn’t help that I’ve not done it exactly…logically. I don’t over write (I wish I could) and the pacing was so fast, everything happened like one after the other with no…y’know…getting to know the characters (and I still don’t know how to do that. I just don’t understand how to do that sort of thing. I need help) that I had so many plot holes and whatnot. I feel like I’ve done it all backwards. Sigh.
Maybe once I figure out what my story IS, overall, I’ll feel better? I sure hope so. I mean, in my head I know roughly what happens, but like with most things, I can never find the right words.
So hi! Long time no chit chat, right? Did you miss meh? I did write a post weeks ago, but unfortunately it was a rather depressing mess. So here I am!
You can probably guess that now I have realised the errors of my ways and become a whole new person?
The truth is, I got to the end of Lost and now I’m like what do I do now? I’M LOST! AHAHAHA GET IT?
I haven’t given up on my contemporary, by the way, but I have put it aside. It was, in a word or two, boring me. So what am I writing? Glad you asked.
That was a joke. Laugh, dammit!
I’m finishing my magic story I did. I got to 40k recently (again) on both stories, funnily enough, but I missed Dominic and Jane. I’m ALSO (apparently a glutton for punishment) changing it from 3rd person to 1st person. BECAUSE I LIKE TO HURT MYSELF. and because it works better this way.
Almost at the end of the story, though, so that’s something. I think once I finish, then go over and fill out bits, then it’ll HOPEFULLY be about 50k. Which is what my end goal is.
So basically I shall update you next time I get to 45k cos y’know woah woah I’m excited. OHcrap I turned on Grammerly and now it won’t stop underlining every goddamn word I Write. also my capslock button is a bit broken. Sigh.
ALSO I’M DOING CAMP NANO IN APRIL SO HEAR MY CRIES
What a killer first line, eh? Have I got you hooked? Shame it’s not for a story. It’s just how I’m feeling.
I had a video planned for this weeks blog/vlog/catalogue. Ha. I rhyme. Anyway, the video turned out to be a shitty idea. I mean, I filmed it, edited, but just…meh. I’m going through a stage of thinking everything is crap and I should give up.
I mean, there’s new bookish drama going on twitter THAT I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH (on the author’s side) and it’s making me so MAD because everyone jumps to the foregone conclusion that THEY ARE RIGHT AND EVERYONE WHO THINKS DIFFERENTLY IS WRONG AND SHOULD DIE IN A FIRE.
I don’t think that. I think if people want to think opposite to me, good for them, I’ll see them in court.
As I was sort of coming around to, this new drama has got me thinking about whether I should even bother writing? I love writing, I want to publish one day, but the way people are behaving, anything I write won’t be considered “accurate” or “represented 100% correctly” like can you fuck off and grow an imagination?
Sorry, I’m getting antsy again. *brushes ants off shoulder* shoo!
So as for my story, my humungous waste of time, I’m at 33? thousand words now. I think. I don’t know. I haven’t written in a couple of days due to a complete lack of mood and feeling like shit, which you can hear all about in my new video going up today. Sigh. WHY
On a totally non-book related side note: why do people think that if you’re older than 20 you’re not allowed to have moody moments and be sad or have depressive thoughts? Like what because I’m not a “hormonal teen” that I’m not allowed to bE DOWN? I should be ‘past’ that? Excuse you, but SOME OF US didn’t even HAVE those hormones as a teen. (I legit didn’t really bc of health issues) so if I’m finally catching up now, that’s not my fault. It’s biology. And fuck biology, that’s what I say. Tomorrow I’m becoming a panda. goodbye world
*tomorrow comes* Wait…what
I’m still human?
I realised for my story that I’m writing WAY too many dramatic scenes – and i love drama, I really do, but man this shit is depressing!- so I need to add some funny moments. It’s not enough to just have the MC’s narrative be ‘amusing’, if I want this to a ‘rom-com’ then it needs COMEDIC MOMENTS, YA HEAR?
I’m so glad I have my blog to hear my woes, because god knows no where else wants to hear them. I made a video about shit that happened this week. I don’t know why I thought that was a good idea.
I apologise in advance.
Um…book news? Um…yeah I HOPE to get to 40k by next week? Who the fuck knows anymore?
Hey again. So it’s probably no surprise to you that I have a youtube channel. I mostly chat about books on it, but lately I’ve been sort of branching out, and incorporating things like tv, movies, my writing… as there are only so many things about books I can, you know, talk about. Kinda gets exhausting after a while. (But I love books…I really do!)
Anyway, I thought for this week’s update I’d do something a little different – not to mention it kinda helps to add more to my channel – by, yep, you guessed it! (if you didn’t, that’s okay. I forgive you.) I made a video! It’s all about the things that I…er…well I call it ‘confessions’ but really it’s about what I don’t do that others do? I don’t really know how to describe it. It’s not serious as such, I mean, I realise I won’t be the only one to do things the way I do. And not everything’s set in stone.
Before I let you watch the video I shall attach hereafter (I got that right…right?) I just thought I’d tell you how things are coming along!
My current story word count (as of when I am typing this) is 26,820 words. Not too shabby, eh? I hope to achieve at least 5k a week, at most 10k a week (because doing 20k in a week was a fluke and no way in hell will I ever get that done again…well….I guess never say never. Damn you bieber!)
I’m still no more wiser as to where the story is heading, besides the obvious romance plot, but all is well…I think I’m just going with the flow. It’s a contemp…I can do that.
AAAAANYWAY… enough rambling. I hope you enjoy what I have to say in this video (and I am sorry if a lot of it is stuff I’ve mentioned in previous blog posts. It’s mostly for the benefit of the watchers on my channel – not that I have many.)
Yo. I’m back for another rant. Ha, not really. I’m actually in a pretty decent mood writing wise. You want to know why?
I think I found THE ONE!
Ahah, you like the new gifs? I figured I’d try and brighten up these posts, since they’re going to be pretty regular. It’s so therapeutic!
Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, so I’m *touches all the wood* almost sure I’ve found the one story I will finish and am completely in love with. Okay so I feel that way about most of my stories, but seriously. Guys. Hear me out!
I wrote over 8 THOUSAND words in one night last Wednesday. 8K! Can you believe that? I can’t. I still can’t. Altogether I’ve written 16k in then. It’s not even been a whole week yet, people! 16K is more than I usually manage in two weeks, let alone in 5 days. Yikes!
I’m not sure if it helps that this is not a YA story, nor is it my usual fantasy based plot. It’s contemporary, and it’s…dare I say it, ‘inspired’ by my life? I guess at the start it was more “me exaggerated” and less “autobiographical”. I am, however, a bit awkward about showing any of it to my mum when the time comes because I know she’ll recognise myself in this main character.
So basically I’m praying to anything and everything that I don’t run out of motivation or…you know…plot. I don’t actually have any plot. So okay, maybe I should create one? Uhuh…yeah.
You already know – or at least you should by now – that I don’t outline, though I’m thinking I should start. However, the trick to me getting so many words done in so short a time? Well, I’ve not been stressing. It was a fling, something I wasn’t even contemplating as serious, with no pressure to have it be seen, I was able to just…write. Also, it helps that it’s SLIGHTLY closer to home? Maybe not THAT close, but like…1 foot step?
Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that so far everything is going smoothly. I mean, I’ve not GIVEN UP on my other story…but in comparison, I don’t know why I didn’t think of THIS story to begin with? I guess because I don’t consider myself an adult (i know I am, but I don’t behave it. Logic, huh) and I don’t really read many adult contemps…so god knows. This might not even read as an adult contemp, which is why I’m wondering if it’d work as a YA. There’s quite a bit of swearing in it, but then, don’t a lot of YA have swearing in these days? Especially the higher end of it all. My MC behaves kinda childishly sometimes, but that’s why it’s so relatable. haha
So I guess that concludes my update. I hope it wasn’t too overwhelming. Hopefully next week I’ll be able to tell you I’ve finished it?